I’m in the midst of a change and as exciting as it is…I’m stressed. New job, new city, new apartment, and a new love…all at once. Have I lost it? Or am I about to gain something I could never even imagine having? To be honest I’m never 100% sure. One day it’s this and one day it’s that. I have to be honest when I say I’m scared out of my mind. It’s not so much what I want to do…but more so all that I have to do, to get to what I want.
Wanting something is the easy part. You can lay back and paint a pretty picture, admire it, and sip some tea. Actually doing what you have to do to get it… that’s the challenge.
I feel like my life was coasting. I was sat down for a bit and just going through the motions of self-development (not that that’s easy) and the everyday routine of working and planning. But that came to an abrupt halt and now everything is in motion and going sooo fast. It’s time to do what I have to do.
It’s an interesting point that I find myself in because I have this lingering thought (premonition?) that if I don’t buckle down and do what I have to do, what I want will take me sooo much longer in life.
Sometimes you find yourself at points in your life where you’re jolted into action. It’s so easy to buckle under pressure, try to talk yourself out of it, and want to walk away. But there will always be something that comes with facing a challenge head-on and doing what you have to do, to get your desired results. This phase wasn’t designed to be fun, it was designed to get us where we want to be.
Taming your mind is the hard part. At least it is for me. I realized that the only way to get out of my own way was to not look at my circumstances but to hold onto my faith in God. So I prayed and realized that if I do everything from a place of love there will be no room for fear. So even if I feel scared, nervous, overwhelmed, and anxious in regards to the things I need to do, the love I have for the great things that are just around the corner will override it.